F#$K it all

I can't do this anymore. Is anybody else just wondering what the point is? I work hard and get told that I don't take responsibilty for my kids. If I don't work then I am a lazy stay at home Mom. I earn money but because I have children and my husband has a job I should rather stay at home with the kids and beg money from him. You can't win. Things will be changing in our lives soon and suddenly the guilt is being thrown with far more force. So should I stay home, lose my mind and resent my kids to make the few happy or should I go to work, make myself happy but have to deal with the snide remarks. I feel like all I do with my day is work when I can, have guilt thrown at me, yell at my kids, resent my husband, fight with my husband, worry about money, worry about my weight and wonder how this is my life. Fucking middle class issues I know but today I really just can't deal with it. I am the person who went for a packet of smokes and never came home... in another life.. maybe. Today I am just tired of it all.